I woke up one morning and wondered why I wasn't being rushed off to school that day. I saw my parents watching the news recapping the reports of smoke coming from one of the towers in New York City, and then the reports of the second tower being hit, and then both eventually crumbling down.
As one who's seen many movies of disasters impacting our cities, such as Independence Day and Armageddon, It's hard for me to admit, with everyone else weeping over the tragedy, that it didn't shake me at all. I will admit though, that if the Koin Tower and Wells Fargo building, or any other building in Portland was struck in the same manner, I would feel no different than the people in New York on that fateful day...scared, confused, and hungry for justice. I do however realize how close I was to the danger, by recalling my return from the Boy Scout National Jamboree, where we toured Washington D.C. among other places and stayed in the open fields of Fort A.P. Hill one month before. I feel blessed to be alive and out of there before it happened, but also guilty that others had to suffer while I got the luxury of watching helplessly as it all unfolded on my TV.
Back in world war 2, Japan's assault was its slap with a dueling glove to the face of America. On September 11th, another renegade nation sucker-punched us twice in our pride. I feel no pain from that day, but I don't know why. I only have the wish that others also have, after almost 10 years of our sleeping giant wide awake and pounding the snot out of terrorist nations, to get the job done and come home to peace once more.
I know others may have stories of their families and fiends who were much closer to the danger or were touched more by this incident than I am. As the song goes: "Do you feel guilty because you're a survivor? In a crowded room do you feel alone?" I feel blessed that it wasn't near home, and that I still have my hands and feet to provide help to those still affected by the ground zero attacks. I don't have the soft enough heart to cry for the ones who died, but I have the strong enough heart to cheer on the ones who have the power to avenge them. I can't help the way I am, I can only accept what I have and hold onto it tight.
That's all I have to say. I don't want to take up a whole page now.